Thursday, December 31, 2009

a new year

I have been alone for over a year now... With special people coming and going through out the time... I lost my best friend and I don't know if I will ever be able to replace her...

I wonder sometimes if I will be alone forever... just having friends, and no one close, no one to love, no one to share my interests with, no one to spend my time with.

My new love is the gym, I give her my time and my body, she gives me muscles and takes away the fat I still have on this body.. Will she ever give me more? will she fill these holes I feel inside...

What does one do for love? does he give himself up to settle for someone less... someone like those I gave my life to in the past... Those who needed to be fixed only to walk over me and leave?

Here is to a new beginning, to a new start, to a new year...